What more to do?

what more to do?
i hear the thumping of my heart..
thump.. thump..thump..
it goes
sends shiver through out my body

what more to do?
i feel the pain in my chest..
makes my body crawl and curl
and catch my breath
clenched my muscles till the tip of my toes

what more to do?
i feel the heat on my cheeks,
the sting in my eyes as i see nothing clear
trembling knees fell on the ground
as wet drops one by one

what more to do?
holes in your heart that is to explode
that is too much for your chest to hold
that is to do is just..
to
cry

what more to do?


i don't even know


written by LeeJoe
2011

You know, those feelings

when you're walking alone
with your favorite song.
As it beats in your ears--
it shuts all the irrelevance in the world
and you feel calm and in your place,
you know what I mean?

when it's raining and
you've been running in the cold.
It stabs you to the bones
but still you dance like a gypsy--
you feel like it is your moment, your floor,
you know what I mean?

when you wake up in the morning--
the comfort of your body and
the familiar smell of your bed sheets.
As you sink into your pillow
knowing that you are home,
you know what I mean?



Written by LeeJoe
2011

I'll sing you a song

I'll play you the most cheerful rhythm
I'll write you the sweetest rhymes

I'll bring you out from the hidden
and give you the best of times

I'll make you feel like dancing in the rain
so you can cry and not feel the shame

I'll make you laugh and smile and feel whole again
even though you know that there will still be stains

I'll play you the best rhythm
I'll write you the coolest rhymes

I'll make you believe that you are important
and bring you back your smiles




Written by LeeJoe
2011

Just maybe

I close my eyes
imagine the yellow leaves fall in autumn
with my big old fluffy coat keeping me warm
as I stroll in the park alone
with my eyes wide open
and my mouth let out chuckles and grins

I close my eyes
imagine the white snow fill the road in winter
with my big comfy arm chair and the fire to keep me warm
as I read my book alone
sip my hot chocolate with marshmallow
my heart beats slow

I close my eyes
imagine why I was still here
the more I reach out, the farther it gets
maybe if I stop, it would reach for me instead


Written by LeeJoe
2011

We make a difference

There is light in you
and it shines every time
when you walk into the room
your presence brings space
and it is brighter and calmer

There is fire in you
and it burns every time
when you laugh and smile
there's a rush of enthusiasm
that burns in your flesh

There are things
that are indescribable
that are unique
that are significant
in everyone of us

We make a difference.

Those light and fire
don't let it dim
don't let it burn out

It'll bring darkness and coldness to the world


Written by LeeJoe
2011

Aku tak boleh tipu. Aku rindu.

Senyum senyum

Gelak gelak

Diam

Tarik nafas dalam dalam

Hembus Perlahan lahan

Cuba untuk senyum lagi

Cuba untuk gelak lagi

Diam

Tarik nafas dalam dalam
jangan tersekat sekat

Hembus perlahan lahan
jangan terburu buru

Senyum..

Sabar

Jangan jatuh lagi..

ALAMAK!

Termenitis.

Aku mimpi

Aku mimpi
Semalam
Aku sesat dalam lautan manusia
Berjalan, bergegas entah ke mana
Arah tujunya kabur- tempatnya tidak nyata

Aku mimpi
Semalam
Aku hanyut dalam kenikmatan dunia
Terapung mengikut alunan lagu yang tiada makna
Mencucuk langit berasapkan awan putih berbau hina

Aku mimpi
Semalam
Aku berlari melawan arus, tercari cari
Hatiku semakin hambar, hujan membasahi aku
Lutut aku terjatuh, aku gugur di atas bumi


Nukilan LeeJoe
2011

It's like this and it's like that

What happened to those moments,
Are they not special anymore?
Those feelings of security
As the nights soar lightly

What happened to those words,
Are they meaningless to the core?
So beautiful- once it made me hopeful
Now when they are empty- It almost seem so cruel

Time, us, together
Are they not precious?
How you overlooked them all
Never notice if one of them would fall

At times when it is dark
Doesn't the light seem so far
Though you can't really see when you reach out
Then what would you expect when you feel the roughness of my scar?



Written by LeeJoe
2011

Cakap dengan cermin

Lihat dicermin nampak diri sendiri
di dalam fikirannya juga gambarnya sendiri
dimulutnya hanya katakan diri sendiri
semuanya bagaikankan tak penting sekali

Perasaannya penting
amarahnya genting

laluannya orang lain ke tepi
hajatnya orang lain di tarik
selesainya orang lain di abai
akibatnya orang lain sakit


Nukilan LeeJoe
2011

Hai, apa khabar?

Hai, apa khabar?
macam mana kat sana?
lama lagi ke baru mahu pulang?

Hai, apa khabar?
macam mana kat sana?
ada rasa kesunyian?

Hai apa khabar?
macam mana kat sana?
banyak kerja harus siapkan?

Hai, di sini sihat sahaja
semuanya baik belaka
raya haji nanti pulang ya
rasa kesunyian kini menyeksa
saat ini dikelilingi timbunan kerja
terima kasih kerana tak bertanya
pasti semuanya sibuk dengan dunia

tunggu aku pulang ya



Nukilan LeeJoe
2011

It happens once
or maybe even twice
It gives you the insight to what it is about
But it is neither precise nor make any sense
Though the silliest things are the treasured prize

It leaves you in pain so dreadful and shame
You fell, you believed
You gave it all that you have
But it treats you so bad it stings in the night

Sunshine and rainbows and sugar so sweet
So beautiful so blissful- feels complete
But time will come and knock you into reality
Present to you with authenticity of pure deceit

You fell, you believed
you did everything that you could
Beautiful at one time and disastrous in the other
Things that got you living just make a fool out of you
Love is neither precise nor predictable like human too.


Written by LeeJoe
2011

Kau dapat satu
kau tinggalkan dua
mungkin tak perlu
tapi akan juga walaupun tak sengaja

Ada rasa kehilangan?
ada rasa kesedihan?
sakit tak kehilangan tu?
sakit tak kesedihan tu?

soalan seperti tak masuk akal
tapi wajar untuk ditanya

kerana dengan kehilangan
kita belajar untuk menghargai
kerana dengan kesedihan
kita belajar untuk mengatasi

membina permulaan yang baru
diri sentiasa dapat dibaiki
tiada tahap mana kita patut berhenti

tapi
kau dapat satu
kau tinggalkan dua


Nukilan LeeJoe
2011

The heart does what it wants.

There were never reasons
at least not that we know of
it knows what we don't
it feels what we don't
it is never wrong
but it might not be right

There were choices
between logic and conscience
where one side says should while the other says shouldn't
where would it be fair if not in the middle?
but then again, choices are to be made

The heart does what it wants
Then it suffers for it
it turns back to logic to ease the pain
but it ends up doing them again



Written by LeeJoe
2011

Hapuskan

Hapuskan jejak aku
yang kotor sampai aku jadi begini

mengapa rasa sangat tidak senang hati?
tidak tahan aku untuk memikirkannya lagi
berpusing kepala aku separuh mati

Hapuskan kata kata aku
yang pahit sampai aku jadi sakit

sendiri berbicara, sendiri yang terasa
kalau aku tidak berfikir mungkin aku akan terbiasa
dengan kata kata aku boleh jadi orang yang terhina



Nukilan LeeJoe
2011

Please be kind

Dear rainbow
please be kind
don't fade away
don't make me wait for another rain
and the sun to yet shine again

Dear wind
please be kind
don't blow my time away
I'm yet to use them someday
just to relive those days

Dear little heart
please be kind
don't cry don't shatter
make neither sound nor whisper
surely they would hear you
even when you are silent

Dear people
please be kind
smile even when the rainbow leaves you in black and white
do something- anything even if seconds is all you have
speak up when you can- don't let your heart suffer when it has yet so much to offer

Dear people
Please be kind



Written by LeeJoe
2011

Ada harapan

angkat kaki
tak mencecah tanah
tergantung
sekali imbas akan terfikir kau sedang terbang
sekali tali nya digunting
senget sebelah- cacat
sekali lagi talinya putus
lihatlah dunia buat kali terakhir
sekali ini pula talinya di cabut sendiri
tutup mata
rasakan angin di telinga
nantikan akhirnya

terdiam

mana anginnya? mana akhirnya?
kau terapung
tanpa apa apa
kau terapung

mengapa tak jatuh?



Nukilan LeeJoe
2011

Teruskan Lagi

Di dalam diam aku petik gitar--

bunyi nya hambar

mencari kata dan irama

semuanya tidak seiring

semuanya tidak sama

terasa hilang

gundah gulana

ke sana ke mari aku cuba mencari erti

apa yang aku ragui aku diamkan saja

sedapkan hati

Terus diam dan teruskan lagi

hidup harus diteruskan

walau alunan musika berlainan genre

makna nya tetap sama

cuma berlainan rasa

Mari gubah lagu sekarang dan akan datang

melainkan memegang lagu yang melodi nya suatu ketika dahulu

dan menarik kita jatuh tidak berdiri lagi.

Nukilan LeeJoe

2011

Hello there friend

Why do you look so sad?

Have the world got you down?

Well cheer up now, I'm here, put your chin up.

Why dear friend?

Why are you crying?

Don't be like that now, it's not over yet

We still have the night to spend, don't ruin it all.

Thank you friend thank you

For the smiles, the laughs, the hugs, the kisses

Ohh should I list them all?

Your wise words, your ears have saved me

Thank you friend thank you

For the memories.

Written by LeeJoe

2011

The roof that was on top of you
It covered you from the rain and the sun
Those walls that were built
They kept you standing and made you think that you're safe
These signs that showed the way
They made you believe that they were true and leading you to the right place

When there's a leak, it can still be fixed
But what if it breaks completely and fall on top of you?
When there's a hole, it can still be covered up
But what if they crumble down and leave your bare body trembling?
When it's lopsided, people can still understand
But what if it lies and lead you to the wrong end?



Written by LeeJoe
2011

Tangisan memecah sepi
Aku terduduk, akal aku mati
aku terlalu kering
sampai tidak lagi aku fikir tangisan itu penting
aku mula membisu
kerana apa aku kata tidak mungkin membantu
memang pahit tekak, pedih hati
tahan semuanya agar tidak berlinang lagi

rasa lemah kah bila jatuh setitik air mata?
Apakah lagi hebat jika simpan dan kuncikan semuanya?
malu kah walaupun setitis tergenang dan jatuh di atas bantal?
berpelukan berselimutkan kehangatan dari kedinginan malam?

jangan simpan sayang
lepaskan saja biar banjir serata dunia
mungkin sementara kau melayang menghilang
tapi tentu yang ada untuk menarik semula ke alam nyata



Nukilan LeeJoe
2011

Tribute "Fly Away Home"

Who says there will never be light in the dark?

Or how you should fall and give up?

You lost something that you hold so dear

But that doesn’t mean you should push away everything that is here

Open your heart learn to accept

You never know it may be the most precious thing you ever kept

Lagi sekali terdiam
setelah beberapa kali ingin berkata kata
masih di lihat di sudut sana
dimana sini mungkin dipandang hina.
apa?
hanya di mata sana sini salah
di mata sini sana yang sebenarnya salah.
mana sekarang yang ingin berjujur dan menyerah kalah?

baik
faham
ternyata jelas
tidak perlu diterang

Buka mata, buka pintu hati
Aku mungkin ada hari ini
esok aku pergi

sayangnya
semua ini amat bermakna
menitis air mata kerana sayang yang tak bernyawa
dibiar terbaring kaku
tiada yang berhenti hanya pandang sepintas lalu
ye tidak penting kerana yang jatuh hanya satu
mungkin?